I see fragged people...

Greetings people, it is I again, back once more to regale you with my adventures and what not. I have been paying less attention to life recently, even more so than usual, because I’ve got some important exams coming up and I really don’t want to fuck them up… eight years of loserdom has taught me a lot. The lady Judy and I spoke after a long abstinence, or I should say (and she did say) my ignorance of her existence for the past month or so. The weight of my exams and the inevitable failure that’s bound to follow has weighed me down heavily and it’s a constant struggle for me to open my books and actually read. But enough is enough, and it’s beyond high time that I started doing something with my life instead of living like an angst ridden teen. Anyway enough about me, let’s talk about my job. Well there’s not much to talk about that either really, except that the work is rather too easy and I get bored easily, other than that, the people are good and the atmosphere is good and everything’s good, at least as far as work is concerned. Work goes a long way in helping me get over my depression and I’m thankful for it everyday. The lady also gave me some surprising news that she had come across one of my old school buddies. He’s of course all grown up and successful and shit, obviously (duh!) and I’m a little ashamed to initiate contact, but I suppose it should be all good, he was a good friend while we were in school, one of the people I liked more. I remember I invited him along for a birthday treat once, just him and two others, forgot which birthday it was, maybe 16th or 15th not sure. It’s hard to believe over 10 years have gone since I’ve seen some of the people from my O/L days… funny how time flies when you’re full of angst. So I’m updating this blog from work right now, I shifted my seat for the third time since I came here, this time I’m in a nice dark corner sitting next to my team leader, who at the moment is being felt up by his girlfriend, (GASP) I shit you not, if my ngage had a camera I would so post a photo. As it is they think I’m probably typing an email or some such since I’m using the word plugin which is an extremely neat tool, very boss friendly unless he actually reads what you’re typing, which won’t happen here. Things on the girlfriend front are hanging my tiny little threads right now and I don’t honestly know how much longer things will be like this; something has to give. She knows that the relationship is doomed, but she still clings to me and I really don’t know what to do. She’s afraid of the finality of it all. Her mother is against Buddhists, I may even venture to say that she’s got a mild hatred for them, but that how and why is another story, which I may share with you once we break up… or if… heh. I bought a new adsl router last week and at first I was all “yay cool router” but not so much now, mainly because the actual routing part of it has become a bit of a bitch to configure, namely port mapping and routing, which basically is non-existent. With my old one I was able to use remote desktop with my server, ftp to it, and then SSH to my mp3 server as well with minimum effort, but with this POS, I can’t for the life of me figure out why remote desktop doesn’t work, I have forwarded the exact same ports and shit. The only thing I’ve gotten to work so far is ftp, which I suppose is ok since that’s the most vital component for me. Remote desktop is just a nice gimmick to show off to my buddies, although it did prove useful at my old office since I could monitor my downloads and stuff. Oh and the other thing is that I can’t even access the router’s web interface from outside the LAN, even though I have enabled WAN access to it. Maybe I need to route port 80 to itself or something, I don’t know and it’s becoming quite the headache. Any techies reading this feel free to offer your advice to me, free of charge of course. The router is a Micronet SS3351, single Ethernet port router based on the Conexant Hasbani single chip ADSL solution. The interface is identical to the regular Hasbani interface except for the logo and that’s about it. The port forwarding issue is the only drawback to this otherwise excellently featured router for the very decent sum of RS6750. Anyway, enough of my banter for now, I shall take my leave and update again when I’m arsed to :D

Peace